Charm? Baby? Baby Charm?? Ha!
We IUI'd again Wednesday at 1:30 pm. Our ultrasound was Monday, it showed a 18 mm follicle. Our FNP said to let it grow until Wednesday then we should be inseminating at the perfect time.
The previous weekend I had a reiki appointment, and acupuncture. I loved both.
The reiki was SO relaxing. The lady moved her hands on various parts of my body and channeled my energy. She used a chakra necklace type thing over each of the 7 chakras. I had told her I was told my sacral was closed. She said it was, along with my throat. After my reiki treatment she checked the closed chakras and they were both OPEN.
The acupuncture was not what I expected. The needles didn't hurt at all. The only one that did I told her it was burning and she tweaked it with just the slightest movement of her hand, the burning stopped immediately. I laid in the dark with some soft music playing. After about five minutes I began to feel extremely heavy. I moved my hands to make sure I wasn't paralyzed. I could move them but I was SO heavy. It continued through the entire treatment (30 min). The remainder of the evening, I felt very relaxed and light.
I have been listening to chakra and meditation music often. I still haven't logged back in to any social media sites. I do look at i-gram about once a day, but that is all. I downloaded some reiki/chakra music for our insemination. I found a lovely video that was 34 minutes long. Perfect for the 30 minutes of relaxing our doc requires after our IUI.
After our IUI the FNP said our swimmers looked good under the microscope. She did take a few minutes to say to us that our timing was great, our IUI went perfect, and that everything we did was right. She said it's out of all of our control now. I got tears in my eyes. I have SO much hope and faith and love for this baby.
I have been imagining a lot of light. Orange light around my sacral area, and white light around my entire body. I've tried to rid any negative energy I felt. I've had a watch over anything that came out of my mouth. I am trying to be aware of all energy around me.
Our next test date is July 31. I can't wait for Aunt Flo to NOT come visit for 9 months!!
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Anti-Social-Networking
So I decided last weekend to delete FB and the Twit off my cell phone. I removed them from my Bookmark Bar at the top of Safari. I haven't been to the baby forums. I am spending each evening meditating/napping/relaxing for about 20-30 minutes. I am taking time for ME, removing any distractions.
I have a reiki appointment for Saturday, and an acupuncture treatment scheduled for Monday after our ultrasound. I must align. I must be centered. I must make sure every ounce of my being is ready for our baby. I feel there might be a hindrance. I want all possible blockages to be cleared.
We are going to my (ex) best friends tomorrow night. I want to hold her baby. I want to feel those little fingers and toes. I want to smell her and infuse her kindred spirit into my follicles.
Baby, we are ready for you. Come see us.
Monday is follicle ultrasound day. We'll probably IUI Tues/Wed or Wed/Thurs. We ordered two vials again. Our doctor did not have me top priority on the phone when I spoke with her Monday...I am hoping she can remove those distractions when we meet Monday.
I must be more positive and have more faith this WILL happen.
I have a reiki appointment for Saturday, and an acupuncture treatment scheduled for Monday after our ultrasound. I must align. I must be centered. I must make sure every ounce of my being is ready for our baby. I feel there might be a hindrance. I want all possible blockages to be cleared.
We are going to my (ex) best friends tomorrow night. I want to hold her baby. I want to feel those little fingers and toes. I want to smell her and infuse her kindred spirit into my follicles.
Baby, we are ready for you. Come see us.
Monday is follicle ultrasound day. We'll probably IUI Tues/Wed or Wed/Thurs. We ordered two vials again. Our doctor did not have me top priority on the phone when I spoke with her Monday...I am hoping she can remove those distractions when we meet Monday.
I must be more positive and have more faith this WILL happen.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Not...AGAIN
We are not preggo, again. This was our 2nd attempt. We have 2 more vials from donor xxxx. We have thought about switching donors..but we have already paid for these 2 vials so all we have left is shipping costs. Not sure if they would buy them back because he is sold out and only has IVF vials left. Their website says they will not buy vials back if he is no longer available. We shall see...
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Our Saturday
We saw where the Symmetry place was having free intuitive readings and massages so we got ready and went down. You know I am so apprehensive about that sort of thing, but find myself open and drawn to it at the same time.
We walked in and saw the place was packed with people. We walked around the store then decided to ask what the deal was. The lady at the front desk told us there was mediums and/or clairvoyants in each room and we could talk to any of them we would like. There was a lady available in the front room at the time so I sat down and talked to her (Ruby). She held my hands and told me she saw money being an issue in my childhood, like it was a struggle. I told her no. She asked if money was discussed a lot and I said YES, to always save. I didn't really get much else from her, and she said my name wrong when I got up so I was like "eh, whatever."
We went to the next room where there was a guy using Tarot cards. I told my Wife I wasn't comfortable with that because it seems "evil"--as that's how I was raised. She told me it wasn't evil...so we waited in line to speak with Randy. When I sat down he asked me to shuffle the cards until I felt comfortable. He turned the cards over and asked what my question was. I said "can you tell me anything about children?" He said "what about children?" and laughed. I asked if he saw me with any. He asked if I had any surgery maybe on my fallopian tubes. I told him no. He said it could mean something in the spiritual realm like I need to surround myself around babies more and get myself mentally prepared for motherhood. I asked if he could be more specific and tell me if I am pregnant NOW. He got goose bumps and said WOW...there's something there!! He turned over 3 more cards and said "2 of the 3 say YES". He then said I have a great light around me and my heart is full of love to give. I was happy with my reading.
My Wife sat down for her reading...He asked if she had a specific question and she said no. He flipped the cards to see what they revealed. The first card he turned over was the Tower which he said was a phallic symbol and given the situation after just talking with me, that it was kind of funny but that it was turned upside down and that showed it was more of an internal symbol. Then he turned over more cards and his next question was "Tell me about your dad". My Wife said he had been deceased since 1993 and Randy got chills. He said his energy was all around my Wife. He asked if she had any specific questions to her dad because his presence was there. My Wife asked if he was happy. He responded with "very" and he had a big smile on his face. He added that he saw her dad rocking his arms were like a baby and that any disconnect she might feel about the baby she needed to let go and she would fall into her role perfectly. Randy said to her "he loves you very much" and Randy started CRYING!!!
Randy went on to confirm things about My Wife's personality that were spot on. It was so funny the ONE person I felt the most awkward about when we got there yesterday was the one who gave us the most peace.
We also met with a girl who does "writing readings". She wrote down a bunch of crap...we didn't think she was legit. She might be...but she could have written it down for anybody. It was nothing specific for us.
Several of the things Randy said to My Wife about her dad were the same things Rebecca had said to her, too. Very cool.
We walked in and saw the place was packed with people. We walked around the store then decided to ask what the deal was. The lady at the front desk told us there was mediums and/or clairvoyants in each room and we could talk to any of them we would like. There was a lady available in the front room at the time so I sat down and talked to her (Ruby). She held my hands and told me she saw money being an issue in my childhood, like it was a struggle. I told her no. She asked if money was discussed a lot and I said YES, to always save. I didn't really get much else from her, and she said my name wrong when I got up so I was like "eh, whatever."
We went to the next room where there was a guy using Tarot cards. I told my Wife I wasn't comfortable with that because it seems "evil"--as that's how I was raised. She told me it wasn't evil...so we waited in line to speak with Randy. When I sat down he asked me to shuffle the cards until I felt comfortable. He turned the cards over and asked what my question was. I said "can you tell me anything about children?" He said "what about children?" and laughed. I asked if he saw me with any. He asked if I had any surgery maybe on my fallopian tubes. I told him no. He said it could mean something in the spiritual realm like I need to surround myself around babies more and get myself mentally prepared for motherhood. I asked if he could be more specific and tell me if I am pregnant NOW. He got goose bumps and said WOW...there's something there!! He turned over 3 more cards and said "2 of the 3 say YES". He then said I have a great light around me and my heart is full of love to give. I was happy with my reading.
My Wife sat down for her reading...He asked if she had a specific question and she said no. He flipped the cards to see what they revealed. The first card he turned over was the Tower which he said was a phallic symbol and given the situation after just talking with me, that it was kind of funny but that it was turned upside down and that showed it was more of an internal symbol. Then he turned over more cards and his next question was "Tell me about your dad". My Wife said he had been deceased since 1993 and Randy got chills. He said his energy was all around my Wife. He asked if she had any specific questions to her dad because his presence was there. My Wife asked if he was happy. He responded with "very" and he had a big smile on his face. He added that he saw her dad rocking his arms were like a baby and that any disconnect she might feel about the baby she needed to let go and she would fall into her role perfectly. Randy said to her "he loves you very much" and Randy started CRYING!!!
Randy went on to confirm things about My Wife's personality that were spot on. It was so funny the ONE person I felt the most awkward about when we got there yesterday was the one who gave us the most peace.
We also met with a girl who does "writing readings". She wrote down a bunch of crap...we didn't think she was legit. She might be...but she could have written it down for anybody. It was nothing specific for us.
Several of the things Randy said to My Wife about her dad were the same things Rebecca had said to her, too. Very cool.
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