Medicine and Marathon

She started Wellbutrin for smoking cessation last Friday. I worry about her taking it, only because when I took it while going through my divorce, it made me very depressed. I asked her today if she could tell if she was on it, she said she seemed very "blah" about most everything today, including when she couldn't find her lighter on the way home. I've seen her in near panic attacks when she couldn't find her lighter before, so this is huge. She wasn't clingy today like she typically is. I think I was even getting on her nerves. That is something I'm not used to. If I got on someones nerves in my past relationships, they never told me at the time. I suppose that's why I am still up at almost midnight and cannot sleep. She seemed irritated with a lot of what I said or did this evening.

It's going to be so hard to find her something to wear for our wedding.

We did our first half marathon on Saturday. WOW, what an amazing feeling!! 13.1 miles. I have the blisters to prove it. God.Awful.Blisters. They are so bad I even called out of work because I cannot put tennis shoes on without excruciating pain. They have gotten better since Sat but my left heel is still extremely tender. Anyway, back to the race. My girl, her mom, and I entered the race. It began at 7 am and we made the 13.1 miles in 3 hrs 20 min. Our goal was 4 hours, because we were primarily walking it. I ended up jogging a bit just to get pressure off my heels when the blisters started to form. I don't typically keep a 4 mph pace on the treadmill, so I surprised myself in the marathon. We had a great time. Several times throughout the race my endorphins were skyrocketing. It was fabulous, and such an accomplished feeling. After it was over we got our medal, a big silver music note, and all the cookies and Gatorade we could stand. Gosh those were the best cookies in the world!! At mile 8 we received a GU gel packet, I chose strawberry flavor. Yum, I wanted another one!! There were only a couple of times during the race where I really wanted to quit, but in the back of my mind I knew I couldn't. I would just pick the next upbeat song I could find on my ipod and keep walking. I know that if I am ever stranded on a highway that my body will let me walk at least 13.1 miles. Before the race I didn't "know" if I could do it. Now I do. Builds confidence. Now a 5K seems like nothing.

The barn dance at her grandparents farm was Saturday night. We had fun. We danced until around 2:15 am. I finally drank enough I didn't remember if my blisters hurt. ha She and I made the signs for the yard, and they received lots of compliments--made me feel good. Someone brought Halloween Oreos for the dessert table--gosh those things are addictive!

I feel better now. Thanks for listening.

Half Marathon

We signed up for a half marathon months ago...and here it is 3 days before the event. We haven't really trained. I feel like I can walk 13 miles, only based on how I feel after walking 6, not that long ago. I have zero intentions of running any portion of it. We're required to keep a 20 min or better pace per mile, and complete the entire thing in 4.5 hours. I bought some new shoes a few weeks ago, recommended by CT. They are wonderful...little to no break in period. Asics Kayano 16. My girl walked a few evening last week in the Asics I bought her in May for her b-day but they began hurting her feet so she tried on a pair of the Kayano's at a local store and decided to order some online--the store didn't have black. They should arrive tomorrow and our feet should be set with nice shoes and socks on Saturday morning.

After the race we must rush to get ready and head to my girls family farm. It's time, once again, for the big barn dance. This is the 5th year they have done this. So much fun...imagine a metal barn with a concrete floor...disco ball hung by the rafters and Christmas lights strung to each corner. The lean-to off the edge of the barn has hay strewn and tables set up for food and drinks. We'll all gather under the disco ball and lights for an evening of dancing and drinking til the wee hours of the morning. We had a ton of fun last year and expect nothing less this time around. We're tossing around the idea of setting up a small tent in her grandparents yard so we won't have to drive to the lake house after drinking. It would be back roads rarely maintained by the police, but still, I'd rather be safe.

We booked a weekend get away to Colorado in Oct with our Orbitz credit. Flying into DEN and renting a car (Priceline is so the way to go!!) to drive up to Estes Park for two nights. We're staying at the hotel where the Shining was filmed. Thankfully I don't watch scary movies and have no clue why this place is so eerie. Maybe I'll wiki the hotel AFTER we return and get the scoop. I plan to spend most of our time in the Nat'l Park listening to the elk bugling and looking at the breathtaking beauty of the snowcapped peaks.

I keep forgetting we're going to Mexico in November. When you book a trip almost a year out, it's hard to remember. It will also be hard to put away sweatshirts and pack sundresses and bikinis.

I'll be 32 soon. Within the next 3 years I will have a full fledged family....I hope. KIDS!

I love my girl...we are so sweet to each other. We leave notes for each other every single day. We try to each lunch with each other as many times as week as possible. We want to spend our evenings together, doing anything. It's still hard to get things done...who wants to do laundry in the evening when that time could be spent walking with her, or hanging out on our porch, or watching tv?

Goodnight.

xoxo