I've been reflecting back on times I remember the subject of being attracted to girls came up. One in particular comes to mind. I was at my then-best friends house, our husbands probably playing video games or talking about hunting season. My then-best friend has a gay brother. I always felt an extra connection to her because of that. I always wanted to be considered family-friendly. I was sitting in my bf's bedroom and told her I had asked husband if he and her husband had ever done anything sexually. She burst into laughter at that. I eluded that I had an attraction to a girl in high school. Not sure how she took it. I wanted to tell her so badly about my girl and what we had on/off the 4 years of high school.
I remember always wanting to be extra nice to gay people. I think I wanted someones gaydar to pick up on something in me. It never happened. It usually shocks people. It's neither here nor there, just a feeling I always had. If I felt the subject could be talked about, I feel I tried to give off hints that I had been with a girl before. Some times for male attention, some times for gay attention.
I always wanted people to know.
It bothers me that my parents haven't responded. Friends say no response is a good thing. It's better than replying with scriptures, or damning me to hell. It's better than replying in rage or fear and saying something that would burn a bridge. Surely a grandbaby will change things, but until then...will they want it to just go back to how it was? I'm tired of my girl not being able to go with me to their house. It'll be awkward the next time I'm around them. Mom's birthday is Aug 30th so I've got awhile to prepare before I will be around them.
Wishing the car dealership guy would call. I'm hoping we can trade. Looking at a 4Runner. Keeping fingers crossed on that one.
My girls mom is staying with us about a week. She had a body lift today. Major plastic surgery, in my opinion. She'll be in bandages for weeks. No shower for 3 days. It will be nice to have here stay, she's very cool. I couldn't ask for a better mother-in-law. My girls entire family is the exact same way. They don't see gender as a barrier. Live and let live, love and be loved.