He says things to me in anger. I'm sure he means them but people who are hurt, hurt others, or at least they try.
I had just gotten over previous guilt of what I did to my ex husband. Now this is feeling more like a soap opera. I have guilt now because I didn't end my relationship with him the minute I noticed I was "looking" for something more. I guess he sees that he would have had a 2nd chance. But would it have been too late, still?
I miss her. Only 4 more days. She's playing softball tonight, with someone I don't like. She asked me the other day if I would prefer she not be friends with her anymore. I am not going to make that mistake again. I will never ask someone to do that. It was held over my head too many times. I am hoping when she moves here their contact will fizzle. Unless it's true friendship, it will. She still avoids talking about her to me. I guess she thinks I will have something to say. I have no idea the dynamic of their friendship. Soon it won't be an issue, I hope.
One thing I've learned with relationship experience is that it's respectful and loving to not pursue certain friendships in light of new relationships. For example, I let Carter know recently that I didn't think it was best for us to communicate anymore. Clay didn't ask me to do that, but I want to create a safe, loving environment for our relationship to grow, and I think a friendship with my ex-boyfriend doesn't help foster that. Just my thought.
ReplyDeleteHope the 4 days fly by!